?Anyway, Koishi. I want to borrow your rock.?
?My what??
Alice pointed. Koishi was suddenly aware of the large rock she had her back to. ?Oh. Sure.?
?Lu-chan, could you give me a hand?? Alice asked. Luize nodded dutifully and boosted Alice's small frame up onto the rock. She scrambled on top, and took her seat looking over the Hell of Blazing Fires, watching the peace conference from afar.
Koishi wanted to climb up on top to look, too, but she could not decide who she was more scared to have see her: Shinki or Satori. She noticed Luize watching her from the side. Koishi did not move at first, but her Third Eye rolled in its socket, followed by her own blue-eyed gaze.
?I am sorry about earlier,? Luize said. ?I was following orders. Part of being in a group is that sometimes you don't get to do what you want, after all.?
The satori girl nodded. ?I understand.? And she did; she was a daughter of nobles, after all. Though... it was starting to sink in, now, how little that meant. The life she had always known was left a smoldering ruin; she had been prepared her entire life for a future that no longer existed. All those language, statecraft, combat, science lessons she had had for years from the palace tutors-- was there a point to them anymore? Was there a point to anything anymore?
Everyone who had wanted to see her succeed was dead. Or in her sister's case: dead to her. It was like that fire had burned apart the ties that kept Koishi's future in place, and now she had nothing to do, no place to go. When Alice and Luize and Shinki left, where would Koishi go back to? Home? She had no home anymore. She had lost everything in that fire. Her books, her clothes, her prized possessions-- her aunts and uncles, her cousins, her father--
And she no longer had a sister who would accept her as family anymore.
She was... all alone.
That word and its concept was new to her. Sure, she had always been one of the only young satori in the Palace of the Earth Spirits when she'd been growing up, but she had always, always had Satori with her. Even in the echoing, lonely halls of the Palace, she had always had her smiling, loving sister by her side.
Now she was utterly on her own. And the thought made her feel as if she'd lost a vital part of herself-- like an arm had just been cut off. Could she live without her sister? Would she?
Did she have any choice in the matter?
Where would she go? What would she do? Could she go back to Satori and beg forgiveness?What could she devote her life to doing now, why would she do it, what reason was there for her to keep going, how could she make a decision like that so suddenly--
Was it better, then, for someone who had been scorned by the nation, family, sister she had once loved to just go off and die so that she would not bother them anymore?
?Koishi.?
The satori blinked, realizing that her name had been called. She looked up to see Alice looking over her shoulder, back down at her.
?Come on up if you like.?
Koishi did not know what she wanted for the rest of her life-- but her reflex conditions took over at this point. Almost on pure impulse, she obeyed Alice and hopped up on one leg, onto the rock. Alice smiled; some part of Koishi wondered why. She was probably just enjoying her quick response.
Alice, despite whatever age she really was, was still very short. So the satori girl looked out over Alice's head, observing her sister from afar. That blonde maid-- what was her name, again?-- was in Shinki's arms, and Shinki was yelling... something, she couldn't tell what.
She could not hear anything from all the way up here, at least not with her ears. She judged the distance between them; she didn't think her
Terza Occhia would have much of an effect. It would be difficult to pick up on any thoughts from this distance.
Unthinkingly, Koishi ran her finger along the lid of her closed Third Eye, and the feeling did not get through to her, her memory did not register it, and she forgot about it in the very next second.
Koishi was still watching the action down below-- while she had been spacing out, the Higan tent had fallen, and a few powerful thoughts struck the haze of numbness she had been trapped in since she had fled her sister. It was from Eiki, the shinigami of Higan. Her pride had finally managed to destroy her. Her actions had been exposed; what she had done was righteous, but it had been for all the wrong reasons. She had thought herself higher than the Yama, and she had been proven wrong. She had tried to fulfill her ambitions and save the people of Chireiden, but it was because she had wanted to add to her own glory. And now she was breaking apart.
The satori girl watched, seeing through Eiki's thoughts in the space of a few moments, but not letting them have any impact on her. Inside, some part of her was confused. Why wasn't she feeling bad? Why could she not remember feelings, emotions? Why did it seem that she was like a rock at the bottom of a fast-moving stream, and everything flowed over her, but she never partook in it?
Why did she feel so separate from everything else?
Koishi's touch lingered on her Third Eye again, but this time it registered, if only a little. She looked down, and was mildly surprised at not seeing her Third Eye gaze back.
?Oh. It must have closed or something.?
She paused. The confused part of her was demanding to know how or why this had happened, but it was getting weaker every moment, being replaced by a curious emptiness, a haze that muffled her own thoughts, served as a sort of insulation from the emotions that had hurt Koishi earlier.
?There's nothing great about being able to hear people's thoughts.?
Because she had developed her Third Eye, she had been able to grow up with Satori in the Palace-- and what had that gotten her? Rejected, scorned by the person she loved most. Because she had developed her Third Eye, she had been able to take Utsuho home-- and yet Utsuho had turned against her, trying to defend that blonde maid from her when she had wanted to take revenge for her family. Because she had developed her Third Eye, she had saved Orin from the fire long ago-- and yet Orin had not tried to defend her, and had sided with her sister.
If no one here wanted her, then she would have to--
The haze in her mind had thickened. Joy, hope, faith, love-- they had only hurt her in the end. She sealed them away. She didn't need them if all they were going to do was hurt her. She was sick of being battered by that which she had once loved. Greed, revenge, mistrust-- them too. A lingering resentment, but she could make use of that, so she left it.
As for the rest-- she would not need them where she was going.
Move on impulse. Tap Alice's shoulder. The girl turns. Looks. Koishi speaks.
?Can you help me get out??
Alice frowns. ?What do you mean? You're not trapped in anything.?
Struggle to make her understand. Koishi speaks without thinking now.
?I want to leave Chireiden.?
The blonde woman starts. She's surprised.
But Alice smiles.
?Sure, I think I can help you with that.?
Update is shorter than usual. >_< Sorry. This was hard to write. This week has not been the easiest. One good thing that happened, though: Thanks to Kira.Lu, the Italian actually makes sense now.

AWESOME. Thanks for all the help!